Why is death so easy for diabetics? I literally have something I could end my life with, near me at all times. No having to find pills, or a gun, or a rope. It’s right next to me. No one would know, it could have been a mistake, a “tragic” mistake. Why do we have so much power over our lives? I could decide to die right now if I wanted, and that really scares me.

Be around others with diabetes. It makes life make more sense.

toxicreaction:

Dealing with, and possible future fears of being a diabetic (in this case type 1), self portrait. I fear of losing limbs even though my A1Cs are fine, I feel like a robot half of the time, something to be maintained and regulated constantly or i don’t function properly, yet still human and easily capable of bruises and scars of the injections and the pain or numbing sensation I may or may not feel. I constantly keep supplies on me in case of emergency. I check my eyes as often as possible to make sure nothing starts to occur there. I am not a robot, but i don’t feel naturally human. I don’t take oil, i take insulin.

toxicreaction:

Dealing with, and possible future fears of being a diabetic (in this case type 1), self portrait. I fear of losing limbs even though my A1Cs are fine, I feel like a robot half of the time, something to be maintained and regulated constantly or i don’t function properly, yet still human and easily capable of bruises and scars of the injections and the pain or numbing sensation I may or may not feel. I constantly keep supplies on me in case of emergency. I check my eyes as often as possible to make sure nothing starts to occur there. I am not a robot, but i don’t feel naturally human. I don’t take oil, i take insulin.

I take the lid off my needle,
and look at the insulin inside.
Just,
stare at it.
Isn’t it funny, how this clear, sterile,
hospital smelling liquid is the key
to my survival? How it saves my life everyday and stops my body from
killing itself.
How fascinating.
How simple. How easy.

And then my mind takes me to
somewhere darker. How this
liquid has now turned into a
weapon. How a little too much
insulin could be the key to
ending it all.
How simple. How easy.

I look down at my needle
and see my greatest enemy.
And the most heartbreaking
contradiction.
I see,
both life and death.
This plastic, disposable needle
represents everything I hate about
myself, all the pain and anger.
It represents my battles and
my burdens.
If only I could dispose of them
as easy as I do my needles.
How simple. How easy.

If you want honesty. (via myrealityofdiabetes)
Cause it’s always nice to be reminded… :)

Cause it’s always nice to be reminded… :)

This might make me an asshole, but I have to say it. I’m so tired of hearing T2’s complain and others complain about how t1’s see them. They always complain about how nobody talks about a cure for them, and you know why? Because MOST of you (not all, but majority) brought on your disease, unlike type ones and you can reverse it. So if you’re so tired of the disease, stop complaining, get off your ass, and work to reverse it. Eat healthier, exercise, work your ass off. Because let me tell you, if I could do that, it would’ve been done a long time ago. But I can’t. I HAVE to live with this the rest of my life. You have a choice. It’s never too late to pick the right one and change your life. Take advantage.

Maybe you have talked about this before but if not... How do you tell someone you are dating that you're diabetic? What way is there to not overwhelm/scare them off, but yet still express the seriousness that its not just the "diabetus" their grandma's great aunt's cat has?

@Anonymous

diabetes-365:

I have but it’s ok! Also that last part you said was quite funny haha.

Well, in your case, if you’re already dating them, it seems like it might be a new relationship and you’re still in the “getting to know each other” phase. I’d sit them down and let them know you have something important to tell them about yourself. Say it right then and there, don’t sugar coat it (worst pun ever).

"I have type 1 diabetes, which means I need insulin when I eat, since my pancreas doesn’t make any. It’s commonly known as juvenile diabetes. I get the insulin in my by (shots or pump), maybe show them your pump, or a shot you have on you. What do you know about type 1 diabetes?"

Then go from there.

Maybe ask if you can tell them your story, maybe keep the talk short, as it’s a lot to take in. That’s your call to make. I know it was a lot to take in when I was diagnosed, we all know what it’s like to just have something come out of nowhere right?

Also the absolute best thing in the world is to be honest. Let them know the kind of impact it has on your life. Good and bad. Let them know you’re not contagious and that you can indeed eat cookies and pizza and stuff. I mean imagine if someone broke up with you because they kissed you and thought you “infected” them, so they thought they couldn’t eat pizza anymore!?!! Man, I’m really not good at jokes when I’m tired…

I’ve had two girlfriends since being diabetic, and both of them didn’t ever have a problem with it. That’s just my experience though. I remember them listening intently to me telling them about it, and I remember it being a lot to take in, but they were totally cool about it. I did however go on a date before, a first date, and I laid out some serious stuff to this girl about the disease. I think I overdid it, and just talked way too much about it. What I mean by that is, I focused too much on that, instead of actually talking about other things and having a good time. Although if you’re already dating someone, I think explaining and sharing it all is fine, but again, you have to remember it is a lot to take in, especially if they have no clue about it at all!

Anyways! If you’re honest and tell them how it affects you and what kind of impact it has on you and they want to jump ship, unfortunately you can’t do anything about that. This isn’t something you can change, it’s a part of you for the time being, and if that’s not cool with them, then you are absolutely 100% better off without that person. To be completely honest, I commend significant others who are cool with diabetic partners. I’m not a fan of needles, insulin pumps, and all of that, so if someone doesn’t like it, then that’s their call. I remember even after having been taking shots for months, that the thought of a pump on my body freaked me out! I know things like that are second nature to us, but everyone’s “normal” isn’t some device attached to their skin all the time. So being understanding of each other’s feelings is a two way street.

You may tell him or her all about it and they JUMP RIGHT IN to reading everything they can. They may just take it all in and be supportive in the best ways they can. It completely depends on the person. You can’t control that.

Now with that said, if they’re an asshole about it, like as in they say there is something wrong with you, you’re disgusting (like the pump thing or shots) or they don’t want to have kids with you, or something completely uncalled for, walk. the fuck. away. and be done with them, because you deserve someone who makes you happy, and someone who likes you the way you are.

I’ll say that last thing one more time, as I think it’s really the most important thing out of this reply.

You deserve someone who makes you happy, and someone who likes you the way you are.

I’m in college at the moment and all the money I have spent on books and fees I rarley have money for food or medical supplies I feel my spirit and health diminishing but I just keep telling myself one day I won’t have to worry about any of this but it’s a lie.

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Today I was holding someone’s hand and running my fingers along their fingers and realized I was subconsciously trying to feel for the calluses that dot my fingers from poking everyday, but his were smooth where mine were blood stained and it didn’t fit at all.

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thebookishwriterkiwi:

He was stocking up things and an older customer started ragging on him and asked to speak with his manager because “he couldn’t be separated from his electronic devices and started insulting our generation for being irresponsible lazy idiots who are dependent on technology”.

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diabetes-365:

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